Im sorry for your loss and thanks for asking. I just stink at this stuff..funny what gets at ya, ya know. When my mom passed(cancer) we knew and had time to prepare and say our last words. I knew my friend, Gary, would end up this way but the prepare part was different.. also the guilt of getting pist at him and pushing him away for almost 10 yrs now is just fn killin me.....i knew i couldnt help him but i was a sh!t friend for doing so....selfish of me. Im really trying not to beat myself up but its hard, i feel like a pile of sh!t.